MMMMMMmmmmmmmm

 

Take me to that place I went last night

It was so so… I can’t even describe it

It was Overflowing,

It was Remarkable,

It was Great quality,

It was Astonishing,

It was Sensual,

It was Mind blowing.

I felt sensations through my body that electrified me.

The Best O, put a tingle in spine

It made me moan so loud that people outside could have heard it.

It made my head explode.

I was in a trance.

Chocolate Stick, mmm mmm mmm mmm mmmmmm

You murdered the kitty last night

Too much excitement for me to handle

Thigh shaking

Toe curling

Back arching

Asthmatic breathing

Ass quivering

Squirting all over the place

Can’t move orgasm.

I just lay still until I went to sleep.

The kitty was wet this morning, waiting for Master to tame her.

You changed your mind about the 9 to 5 today

It gave you another opportunity to tame the kitty

You tamed the kitty while I positioned like a dog.

And as usual there is a puddle in our bed.

Daddy you penetrate so deep inside until I bury my face into the pillow

I could not breathe but I know you will not let me die

I let you lead the rhythm because you know what’s best

The way you grab my hips and squeeze my ass made me weak

I am tired now and kitty, well she is exhausted

Until the morning when Chocolate Stick makes his early rise.

My Double Life

My Double Life

 

            My double life began around 2001. I never had a problem expressing my sexuality. It became a problem for some of my family members. I was expected not to be sexually active at all. I was told to wait for my husband. Don’t stay out past 3 in the morning because you will have a reputation. I ignored all of those statements. I guess you can say I was loose. During this time, I was the church going, choir singing, and outstanding young adult in my church. I have heard all of the fornication sermons I could stand. The only problem was, the message was formed for women. The sermon was not addressed to men to keep their dicks in their pants and wait for their wife. I began to seek out other sexual experiences. I wanted to have a threesome with a woman and I wanted to have sex with a woman.

            In 1999, I worked with a girl that was so sexy. I mean she had the biggest ass I have ever seen. I felt awkward about this. She and hung out a few times but never to the point I expressed my TRUE feelings. I decided to place a profile on a dating site. My profile welcomed men and women. The first lady I met was a friendly relationship. Her name was Rosie. We were like sisters. We both talked about our interest in having sex with women, however that never happened. We went to the movies together, shopping, took trips out of town and out to eat. Rosie was like a big sister to me. She moved to another city and then I moved. We lost contact of each other. The next woman I met was a beast. I had sex with Mia on our first “date.”  I traveled 40 miles from home to meet her. She did not meet my physical expectations, but I am a people person so what could I loose. Mia loved sucking my nipples and playing with my breasts. I enjoyed watching her have an orgasm. I never thought I had the ability to make a woman quiver as she did. I thought my tongue was doing somersaults on her clit. She tasted sooo good. We had to stop because I had to drive back home and go to work in the morning. I began spending a lot of time with Mia on the weekends since both of us worked full time jobs. Mia also had a double life. She did not want her 17 year old daughter to know what her “other’ life was like. We were freaking each other any and everywhere. Mia and I were always sucking and licking each other in the car, hotel, her house and even a park on the lake. I had my skirt up with my booty in the air and she was inserting her tongue in and out my pussy like a dick. Mia was also had the eagle spread going on the picnic table. There were people in their boats riding by. We did not care how they were looking at us. Mia and I slowed our relationship down. Her job and family demanded more of her and the same happened with me. I eventually moved to Cleveland, OH and I lost contact with Mia. Within a year she found me on the same dating site. We talked a few times and we lost contact again.

            During my sexual escapades with Mia, I was in limbo. I was not in love; however the experiences I shared with her were confusing to me. I could not figure out if I was straight or a lesbian. I kept this life as a secret to my close friends and family for a long time. I was so afraid of what they would think of me. I feared being ridiculed and not being loved. I also began experiencing feelings of guilt. I started having dreams that I was actually going to hell. I was also talking to women in chat rooms and eventually on the phone. I had one woman, who was a lesbian trying to get me to live with her for a year. I told her I was moving to be with Daddy. Ever since I have moved to Cleveland, I have had the opportunity to live a comfortable life as a bisexual woman. I am still discovering things about my sexuality. I have told a lot of my close friends and 2 family members about my sexuality. I think they are more curious about how it works than me being bisexual. I never got the response as if they were ashamed of me. I received love and support from my BFF. I think she is a little curious when she has too much to drink. I think that will be a blog in the future. By the way, I am currently looking for a girlfriend.

 

DeDe DeRenne

Female Ejaculation

This is also known as squirting. There are many myths about this. Some people think it is actually urine. There are also those who think it is disgusting.
Here is the scientific view of female ejaculation.

All women have a functional prostate gland, about the size of their thumb, that surrounds their urethra. Just like the male prostate, it produces fluid, beginning at puberty. Within the prostate gland there can be an area of increased sensitivity, more commonly referred to as the G-Spot. The G-Spot is located somewhere along the length of the urethra. When the prostate gland is stimulated, many women experience female ejaculation, and a distinctive type of orgasm, a vaginal orgasm, one that is different from that experienced during clitoral stimulation alone. Some women cum, as in ejaculate, during sexual arousal, prior to orgasm, even without G-Spot stimulation. There is muscle tissue that surrounds the prostate gland that contracts during orgasm, potentially expelling its contents. There is some debate about the origin of all the fluid that is released during female ejaculation, as the prostate gland itself is relatively small, yet some women release up to two cups of liquid. Nevertheless, the liquid released during female ejaculation is not the same as urine. The best way to stimulate the G-Spot is through rhythmic massage with fingers, a penis, or dildo. It may take practice to locate and connect with the G-Spot, and to learn how to experience vaginal orgasms that are accompanied by female ejaculation. G-Spot and vaginal orgasms aren’t nearly as common as clitoral orgasms, some women always experience them, others never.

Female ejaculate is a fluid that is expelled from the body through the urethra during sexual activities. When released in small quantities it may be a mucous like fluid having a clear, milky, or yellowish coloration. As the volume of the expelled fluid increases it becomes like clear water. In small quantities it may have a distinct scent that is musky or pungent but when the fluid increases in volume and becomes clear there is no longer a detectable scent. Some of the components found in it, urea and creatinine, are also found in urine, but in much lower concentrations than are found in regular urine. When female prostatic fluids are found in urine they are in much smaller concentrations than in present in female ejaculate. The fluid released during ejaculation and urination are not the same though they may share some of the same substances. As the volume and appearance of female ejaculate changes it is likely that its composition changes too.
Women who expel fluid during orgasm report the color, smell, consistency, and even taste, varies from one occurrence to the next. (It is safe for a person to taste their own ejaculate, and for couples who already exchange body fluids but not for couples needing to practice safe sex.) Some have found their menstrual cycle influences the type of fluid expelled. What you eat is likely to have an affect on it, as will how much liquid you have consumed. Some women report it is sometimes clear and odorless and other times thick and pungent. Others report it sometimes looks and smells like urine, which I have found to be true only when a woman tries too hard to ejaculate. It is safe to say most women’s ejaculate will vary over time and during a single sexual episode.

My Experience
The first time I squirted was when I was 19 years old. My partner was 27 years my senior. When I ejaculated I actually thought I was urinating. He explained that it was not urine and that I had squirted. Ever since then I have not stopped squirting. The older I get the more I squirt. I have squirted with my fingers, penis-vaginal intercourse, a dildo, receiving oral and yes even anal play/sex. While I am sexually stimulated I have multiple orgasms. I squirt numerous times through out intercourse and foreplay. I think female ejaculation happens in it’s own time. I will tell you once it happens, it is not expected. As of now, I have not heard of any lessons or techniques about squirting but I will keep you updated.

My Thoughts On Adult Entertainment

I am dismayed by what I’m seeing these days in the adult entertainment industry. When I entered the business, I was influenced by performers like Honey Juggs, Ebony Princess, Norma Stitz, Samantha 38G and a few others. I consider all of these women to be women of class and elegance. After I got started, I interacted with women such as Tipsy, Kelly Shibari, and Vanessa Reece and Menaja Trois. My feeling was essentially, along the following lines: Yes, there’s a lot of raunchy, low quality porn out there, but there’s a market for the refined, beautiful, elegant and sexy woman. These days, with what I see out there, I’m not so sure anymore.

The first problem is that there is a lot of free stuff out there online. Sites such as XVideos, BigTittyTube and the proliferation of free thumbnail gallery post sites (too many to name) have created a weakening of the adult market. The quality isn’t that great on most of it, and the really sad part is that a lot of it is low quality versions of high quality work that was originally posted on someone’s pay-site and was stolen and reposted. It’s difficult to hold the site owners totally responsible; the content is posted by users who think it’s ok to repost other people’s intellectual property. In many cases it’s hard to place full blame on the users. They may be guys (or girls) who really love a particular model and performer and just want to share a limited number of pictures or clips of their favorite with other guys. In some cases, this can actually have a positive effect. It can create new fans of that particular model, who will subsequently go to her site and subscribe after seeing her in action. But in reality, the opposite effect is much more likely; potential subscribers will feel that there is no need to subscribe since they can get everything they want for free. This phenomenon is artifact of the digital age, and there’s not much use complaining too hard about it.

What I think is worth complaining about is what I see as the “cheapening” of adult entertainment. Look at how many of the women I mentioned at the beginning of this blog are no longer active. What is it that drove them away? I have spoken with some of them, and they are also unhappy with what they are seeing. Why do so many people feel that all adult entertainment is synonymous with hardcore porn? There’s nothing wrong with hardcore porn, I respect women who choose to do it and I have my own personal favorite porn performers. I choose not to do hardcore, and too often, I see that choice disrespected by both men and women in the industry. Why is being in adult entertainment considered to be synonymous with being a prostitute? Again, I’m a pretty open minded woman. If “escorting” or even straight up street-walking is what a person wants to do, then I advise them to be cautious and I have the utmost respect for them. But I can’t tell you how many so-called photographers, web-masters and producers have spent more time trying to talk me into having sex with them than they have trying to recruit me for the model booking that we initially discussed which was the only reason I was talking to them in the first place. Additionally, there are too many fans that get the idea that if they offer me $500 or $1000 or $2000 or whatever, that I will have sex with them. In other words, they think I’m a prostitute. There is NO AMOUNT OF MONEY that will make me meet some unknown, random guy in a hotel to have sex! But perhaps the worst are the guys that I interact with on social network sites. The guys who never buy anything from my Clips4Sale store. The same guys who never actually subscribe to any of the sites that I model for. The same guys who aren’t willing to spend a dime on anything adult entertainment related, but nevertheless IM me incessantly begging for sex. These are the same guys I see in the strip clubs that I go to who will sit right in front of the stage, sip one beer for two hours and never tip any of the dancers. WTF! I once saw a dancer “accidentally” kick a guy like that, but I digress.

On the other hand, I know a handful of men (Men, not males) who follow the things I do online, patronize my Clips4Sale and other sites, speak to me in a respectful manner at all times and let me know that I am appreciated. I am sure that they treat other classy models with the same respect. Sometimes it seems as though for every man like that, there are 100 so-called males of the other type. If any guys reading this are wondering which type they fall into, here’s a guideline. If in the very near future, you find that you are unable to ever get my attention on any of the social network sites, if you find yourself “mysteriously” deleted from my friends list, if you’re getting clowned by models and adult entertainment figures on social network sites, it shouldn’t be too difficult to figure out which group you’re in. It is especially easy when they do ignorant things such as post their telephone number on Twitter or facebook! To the intellectually mature gentlemen out there, I implore you, don’t let them completely take over the adult entertainment industry. Don’t cede it to the jerks and idiots. There will always be trash mongers, because there will always be a market for trash comprised of males who have low self-esteem and can only relate to the lowest-common denominator. Hold a higher standard. Hold as many websites, webmasters models, porn actors and producers as possible to a higher standard. Please, continue to hold ME to a higher standard. Tell them that you want to see women of refinement sometimes and then vote with your dollar to help perpetuate what you want to see and to help kill what you don’t want to see. We may not completely kill the junk, but we can create a haven for elegant ladies and classy gentlemen and that’s good enough for me. Thank you all for reading. I love my intelligent, progressive, classy fans!

IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK

 

Over the past few months the experience of other people having an opinion is impacting on my reality more than anything else. I have changed my eating/dietary habits to make life better for me. I understand my family and friends want that, however some of them think I am taking it to the extreme and I am not healthy. Let me give you a little background information about me. I grew up in coastal Georgia. I grew up in a home where fresh food was a must. I never ate Hamburger Helper until I was 26 years old. I was not interested in cooking, however I loved to eat. I can witness to the Sunday and holiday dinners where there were endless amounts of food that lasted for days. I also loved eating fine food.

 

Living on the coast provided an abundance of fresh fish and seafood. I was educated about the food groups and eating 3 meals per day. I was also told that I did not eat enough vegetables. This was true. My list of vegetables included: greens (Collards and Mustards cooked with smoked neck bones), broccoli (loaded with cheese), green beans (with smoked neck bones) corn (loaded with butter and salt), and a salad (loaded with ranch dressing, cheese and bacon bits). I thought I was ok. My list of fruits were numerous. I was never on any crash diets. I have tried Slim Fast with no results. I have done extreme exercising regimens that only increased muscle.

 

I guess you are wondering what changed. I had a visit to the ER in 2011. I called off from work; there was so much ice on my car that I was too weak to scrape it off. I waited until my boyfriend came home from work. I was in a lot of pain and I felt horrible. By the time I left the ER, my blood pressure was high, and I was anemic. After much testing, it was discovered I was a borderline diabetic and diagnosed with hypothyroidism. I forgot to mention I was at my highest weight of 327lbs. Yes, this scared the living daylights out of me. I hated the way my body felt. After my visit to the ER, I was referred to another doctor. I really did not pay attention to what he was telling me I sat there thinking that I am too young for this to be happening to me. I thought about my family members that died from heart attacks, strokes and diabetes. I came to realize those diseases came from their unhealthy eating habits. The doctor prescribed metformin for my diabetes and medication for my thyroid problem. Metformin made me very sick. I could not believe this medication was suppose to make me better. I decided I would not become a person dependent on pills for my survival.

 

With this knowledge of my health, I ceased from eating red meat, sweets, starches, pop, alcohol, dairy, cheese, butter and anything else that caused my body harm. I began a rigorous workout that included running, water aerobics, strength training, pilates, Jeet Kune Do, belly dancing and Zumba. I cried, sweated and cursed during these workouts. I could not blame anyone but myself. I used muscles I never used before. I did things I thought my body could not do. As time passed I have lost 30lbs and kept it off, removed chicken and seafood from my menu, increased eating beans and raw nuts and removed processed food from my diet.

 

When I explained this to my family, they were proud of my success and worried that I was doing something wrong. I explained I never felt better. I was not going  to be a pill popper. D (my significant other) could not understand what happened to his “eating partner.” At this point, I love my body and what I place in it. I know that I am doing the right thing. It feels to grocery shop and not feel guilty about what I eat. I am taking this a step further to participate in a juice fast next month. I welcome the challenge. During the fast, I will post video blogs on Youtube (http://www.youtube.com/ladyderenne). I thank you for your support on my blog page.

 

Fat But Fit

DeDe DeRenne.

Hello world!

This was an abrupt change for me. It was not planned for me to switch to WordPress today. Here is a brief introduction of myself.

I am an adult BBW model. If you don’t know by now, BBW means Big, Beautiful, Woman. I have been a big girl most of my life and I am proud of it. I started modeling in 2004 on NudeAfrica.com as ClevelandPeach and Cumcmesquirt. In 2009 I changed my modeling name to DeDe DeRenne. I have appeared on Blacknplenty.com, Blackamateurboobs.com., Ethnicbigboobs.com and SiliconeFree.com. I am also a webcam host on Imlive.com as DDDeRenne. My purpose is to let the world know it is good to be a BBW. I have come to realize I do not have to be a size 10 to feel beautiful and loved. I am available for appearances, custom videos, photo shoots (nude, semi-nude, eye-candy, erotic, and lingerie. This blog page will focus on BBW, Fat Accpetance, Self Love, Vegan/Vegetarian Lifestyle, Porn,  and Adult Modeling/Entertainment